more random thoughts

i need to start learning to not have my heart so involved in things...i used to be really good at that....just removing my feelings....well, not so sure i removed them, just buried them so deep inside that they didn't get hurt...somewhere along the line, i uncovered them...and laid them out there for all to see....and now i seem to have difficulty burying them again...or even protecting them....they seem to be worn on my sleeve...out in the open...showing the scars of battles long since past...so wounded that they can't be covered up