inside-outside

need to find a way to make the outside match the inside
maybe then the pain on the inside will be able to dissipate
i try to change the thoughts, the habits, the patterns
but to no avail
the pain on the inside just keeps growing
overshadowing the progress i appear to be making on the outside
yet still i keep struggling along
hoping....praying...that one of these days....
that what i feel inside and what i present on the outside will match