noise

i write to get the feelings out
to get a handle on my emotions
to make the thoughts in my head be quiet for a little while at least
sometimes it helps...to stop the noise in my head
other times it just stirs up the thoughts even more
those times scare me....make me think the thoughts are too consuming
afraid they'll be all-consuming...eating me alive...making me nothing
more than a shell of the person i desire to be...